The Urge
Hello Lovlies!
Suddenly, while on my way to see my therapist today and feeling like I really maybe didn’t NEED to go…for today, I twittled over in my mind the things that had sent me into a place of empowerment with my body, food, movement and general well-being with being in my skin. That is where YOU come in!
Ahhhhh, Buddy Slim, my sometime haven of body loving mentality.
At the end of the day…and this is my newest secret….I arrived home tired, weary and looking for inspiration. NOw I don’t know if this will make ANY sense, but I don’t really tell many people that I watch The Biggest Loser. (Actually I have only watched it about 4-5 times, but for a girl who doesn’t own a TV, searching for any show and watching it that often qualifies as a lot.) You must wonder why I would keep that a secret. Well, I think The Biggest Loser is inspiring because of the strength the contestants find and abhorable because of the torturous challenges and verbally abusive coaches. That all said, it is like not being able to take my eyes off a train wreck. I love hating it and hate that I love it.
Is that absurd to some of you?
So about the same time I sit down to watch the show, my husband shows up with a box of GIRL SCOUT COOKIES! ACK! He opens the box, takes three of the five cookies on the first row out and announces that he is off to work. What in the world! He as left me with too many dilemnas for my own compulsive riddled good. Stay with me now… First…. by taking three and leaving the two that are left on the row, he forces me (wink) to move onto the second row of cookies. This gives me permission to eat another cookie…at least because he had the majority on the first row and I should get majority on the second row. (What kind of twisted freak am I? & Where the hell did these RULES come from?) Secondly, once a food has been opened while the tv is on, it might as well be a gonner….And Thirdly, how bad am I for sitting and eating Girl Scout Cookies while the girl on the purple team is trying to get under 200 and telling me I can do it to! She totally ruined my fix!
And probably saved my life.
So I put the box of cookies in the box with the other boxes of cookies, shove it under my coffee table (which I guess is now technically a cookie table) and try the old out of sight out of mind. Which so far has worked.
I finish watching the biggest loser and can really relate to the Dad whose knees are keeping him from working out the way he would like. Bob sends him to the pool for a time during the show and I remember the pool. ahhhhh the pool at the Y. It was my nemesis and my love. I felt like the oddity children must try to understand and powerfully alive. Drawn to go and terrified to get in….or out. The bathing suit my torture chamber.
Alas, tomorrow I will call…and find out if I can make a go of it.
For those who are my buddies, hugs, dear ones. I have thought of you often as I make my way thru school. Things are great…a year of my dreams come true. Now if my body will let up a bit, I will be golden.
Best to all,
Rae
hey girlie… hadnt seen you on here in a while. Go for it with the pool. If your knees are hurting, it’s the best way to get good cardio without hurting yourself more. When I did physiotherapy I learnt hydrotherapy. At one stage I had to get into a pool wearing a harness and run in place…. wow…. I was fit and I only lasted 5 minutes before I got too puffed!
The water is great for fitness because it acts as a natural resistance. You will work every single muscle group from your shoulders to your toes if you just walk in the pool with the water just a bit above chest height.
The girl on the purple team ruined your fix with the cookies? Ah, the power of words to the conscious (I can’t speell). The other day at the restaurant honey orderd wings and I got a grilled chicken club..he asks me if I would like a wing and I sit there and look at them and remember a few weeks ago when I had wings I tell him no thanks the last time I had wings all I could taste was the grease and fat and they’re just not as appealing any more…well he tells me after dinner that because of what I said it got his mind goind and he started tasting the fat and grease instead of the deliciousness of hot and saucy wings.
So remember those girls words if she can do it so can you.
It will all come eventually Rae…remember slow and steady will keep you on a good course.
Take Care,
Ann Marie
Oh, you are sooo strong… I would have so eatten the cookies! lolz… Congrats on that, you deserve a pat on the back for that one… Great job!
Those damn Girl Scout cookies…I had to hide mine so I wouldn’t just keep eating them.
Ahhh now you have me twittling my thoughts…LOVE IT. All good thoughts on this fine Sunday AM.
I wonder if there will ever be a time when we can forget about the body that is present in our worlds and just know that it is just a form. It is fun to think, yet we know, we want more.
What does the Body Practice leader do for activity?
If I could I would swim in the ocean with little fish swimming around my feet. I would feel right at home……ahhh and no concrete beneath my feet…. Lately I have been doing cardio and some strength. It is going to be excellent to get back to walking as the temperatures MAY be starting to improve for walking. Do you have a favorite yoga DVD or dance DVD? Hehe…. yep, sometimes I am a groupie, but this is the first time I am even a little close to being serious 
Have a good one.