The Body Practice

In therapy last week, I talked to my counselor about how I sometimes eat mindlessly.  When things are going well, when my food falls into place, I can have such peace with food.  But recently, I have struggled.  I have this compulsion to devour what is not good for me.  I am eating junk.

There was a time when I went to Overeaters Anonymous and found that helpful.  Nowdays, there are other paths I prefer (like buddy slim), but I did find OA helpful then.  One thing I didn’t dig so much was how OA made overeating seem like a disease.  I understand the concept, but it just wasn’t the most helpful for me.  I know it works for a lot of people and …more power to them! 

I am ready for another round of calm with this food thing. I am thinking about it like meditation. I think my mind gets preoccupied and needs to be brought back to peace. 

The encouraging part is that I believe it can and will calm down.  That is a new way of believing for me.  I have felt hopeless in the past.  I have doubted that my weight would ever change.  Then in these last six months or so, I have lost and gained.  That might totally frustrate some of you. But it encourages me.  I don’t remember when I mindfully lost weight.  So even if the scale has started to creep back up, I know that will not be a forever fate. It is simply part of my process.  There are things I can do to encourage a more comfortable weight.

The first thing I am doing is to hold onto that hope and belief in ultimate progress.

I am also starting to work through a book called Why Weight?! It is for exploring compulsive eating. It was recommended by my counselor.  It seems pretty good so far.

The other thing, I will continue the self-love path.  This seems to be the most helpful thing I have ever done for my body.

I also want to continue with Buddy Slim. I am spuratic, but I am doing it as I can and without judging myself for time away. I have a lot on my plate without making this a hafto.

As I work through my workbook, I may choose to share some of the work here.  This seems like a good place for it.

Hugs to all my buddies and high five to all those I haven’t gotten to know yet.  I will probably be around a bit more for the next few weeks, but after that, I am going to be busy with school and work.  I will be checking in as I can though.

Until then, I wish for you an ever-expanding moment of peace,

Rae